Machina Non Grata

 I promise it's not for the smut.  Although the smut is good. It's artsy, and aesthetically delicious. Playing through the game, and obsessively trying to Platinum Trophy it, I'm noticing all the new easter eggs.  Edgerunners reference, David Rodriuez mentioned, his jacket logo painted on the wall. Padre knows of him and his legacy. Sorry not sorry, Judy looks better with longer hair; not the hipster side shave. It's hideous. I speak as someone that had one for 10 years.  "Laguna Bend" AKA Laguna Beach. Thee gurl is from there, says we'll go visit there now LOL. Man I'm homesick. "Hippocratic Oath" Maaaan, I've been working in Healthcare too long.  More Edgerunners references:

Yapping, as they say. Don't care. Where else would I?  Being a social pariah again. Only this time, I'm not in the deep South. Because extreme views take many forms.  So many bridges burned, that I'm used to the fumes, too emotionally exhausted, and nihilistic to even consider if they're toxic to breath in.  Portland broke me. I met a hero, something you should never do. I tasted my 15 minutes of social relevancy. I could have ignored the ulterior motives, still felt like I had a friend, and a social circle, support network, but I pulled the plug on it. It hurts more to have lost someone I thought was a friend, the social isolation that resulted from it, is another story, not to mention how that person, like so many in Portland, became an extremist himself.  I'm leaving back to the place I never thought I'd ever miss again. I thought this was "home." Being uprooted doesn't hurt as much when you're younger. But I'm exhausted from instability

 I can't speak for all non-binary people, but from the level-headed ones I've met, there have been different viewpoints depending on the person. One individual literally wanted to not look male or female, wanted to even have their genitals removed completely, be bald, totally ambiguous. Being seen as one or the other made them very uncomfortable. The other person I knew was my old endo doctor, who was biologically female, but transitioned similar to how a trans guy would - testosterone, top surgery, total change in voice. But they didn't want to ID as male, and got an X on their ID card. There are is no way to transition hormonally as non-binary, there's only male and female hormones, so I guess it's more of an identity than something physical for the people I've met. I'm very transhumanist, and I'm chill with someone's identity as long as they don't force it on me, i/g: push for pronoun checks in mundane spaces, or push for gender abolitionism.

  “The  sky above the port was the colour of black and gold, tuned to dead meme... ” Los Angeles, November, 2019... The free market has been sabotaged. The lines between organic and synthetic beings have been blurred. Man, now become woman. Woman become man. Man and Women become null. Hair as blue as the ocean, before the Marxist uprising wiped out the global powergrid, with a super-EMP, codenamed "Soy-lent Grün."  It was cold, with acid rain that burns the skin. I searched for shelter.. and a beverage. It is difficult in these years to find a nourishing meal. Newspaper (on datapad) covering my head, I ran for the nearest cafe I could find on the street corner of desolate downtown Los Angeles. I couldn't bring myself to decide whether the neon-red LEDs of "Das Kapital" cafe were blinding or inviting. Eyes fixated and studied me head to prosthetic toe, as I wandered into this small establishment, gingerly. "Can I help you?..."  "It's Dockyard..

To Preface this, some questions should be answered: 1) Is being alternative a choice, or fashion style that can be easily removed like a costume? 2) Who sets the standard of acceptable dress codes? 1) I do not believe it's as much of a choice as most people would say it is. I believe there's underlying psychological factors that make a person attracted to things outside of 'the norm;' especially things of a morbid nature. Alternative people seem to have less of a fear/disgust response than most people. There also have been links by psychologists, between tattoos, piercings, body scarification, and sexual orientation: https://www.encyclopedia.com/social-sciences/encyclopedias-almanacs-transcripts-and-maps/piercings-tattoos-and-scars 2) Where do "the rules" regarding what is 'acceptable' or 'normal' stem from? Those are socially mores based on religion, and gender roles. It's the same reason why men are told in the work force t

After watching Todd Phillips' film Joker, I've seen a lot of parallels to what happened in the 90's with the tragic events of the Columbine shooting in Colorado, by the plot of the film, and the media, in general's reaction to the film. Columbine happened on April 20, 1999. The birthday of Adolf Hitler. Two social misfits decided to seek revenge for being bullied by bringing an arsenal to their high school, taking the lives of 12 students, as well as themselves. Most people that lived through that decade remember how horrifying it was, what a change it brought to American culture, how it shifted conversations about possession of firearms, and how the media tried to scapegoat entertainment as the culprit. The "Goth subculture" was blamed, even though neither Eric Harris or Dylan Kleebold were part of it, they did listen to some Industrial (more leaning on the Industrial-Rock side of things like KMFDM, NIN), but weren't affiliated with the subculture built